Despatches from a mother who started late (and is running to catch up)

Sleep

Kick in the head

Beanie's teething problems continue unabated, causing her to wake in the night and refuse to settle.

About 5.50am she signalled to her father in no uncertain terms that her morning had started.

"I was woken up this morning with a kick in the head," said Va-vay later, rather plaintively.

If I hadn't suspected he was playing for effect, I might have been more sympathetic.

Posted 06 November 2007 11:01 | Number of comments: 6 | Comments

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Sharing a Shell

7pm: Before putting Beanie to bed, I read to her about the adventures of Blob, Crab and Brush - "three friends, sharing a shell". She listens with her customary eager, almost rapt attention, while fingering the glittery pictures and pointing at the seagulls wheeling overhead. I close the book and lower Beanie gently into her cot.

"Wwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh."

She allows herself the briefest of pauses.

"Wwwwwwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh."

To our dismay, she throws Mr Bear overboard in fury. When she does this, we know we're in real trouble. For where Mr Bear goes, Beanie goes too. Or, at least, in this case, would like to go.

Va-vay and I exchange looks of horror.

"She's not normally like this," I say despairingly, telling him what he already knows.

"What do you suggest we do?" he asks, putting down his briefcase for the first time since he got through the door from work and looking, momentarily, defeated.

"Leave her for a bit? See if she settles?"

"Into what?"

A warning that would have them running for the air-raid shelters in seconds is 'what'. A sonic assault on our ear-drums that would have Health and Safety round in a trice if it happened in the workplace. Try as I might, I feel a familiar mixture of sorrow, love, sympathy - and irritation.

"Better go and change out of my work clothes," says Va-vay, in a tone of forced jollity that alerts me to how tired and strained he really is.

At Beanie HQ the bombs could be dropping any minute. National emergency. Briefly, I wonder what the neighbours must think.

Prepare supper while trying not to listen to daughter-turned-police-siren wailing.

Take it in turns to ask each other: "Is it wrong to leave her to cry like this?"

Abandon plan to 'let her settle'. Impulsively climb into Beanie's cot to help her sleep. She is delighted at this unusual turn of events. But refuses to settle. After her eyes close, admittedly against her will, I attempt to clamber out again, waking her in the process. Drat. Admit temporary defeat and regroup in kitchen, carrying through a triumphant and flushed Beanie in her sleep bag.

Administer milk, calpol and teething gel.

9pm: Grinning with delight, Beanie, propped up between her parents, settles down to watch Spooks. Shield her eyes from scenes of torture, shooting, kidnap and bubonic plague. It doesn't leave much left over. Beanie remains scarily indifferent throughout, except for shooting the odd delighted glance towards me and Va-vay.

"Are you a little scamp?" Va-vay asks her fondly.

10pm: Grumbling but no longer shrieking, even Beanie has to concede the time has come to sleep. With little more than a token protest, for even an 18-month-old has her pride to consider, she puts her thumb in her mouth, clutches Mr Bear to her and curls up on her front for some long-overdue kip.

Midnight: Did I mention sleep? Between now and 2am Va-vay and I try, in no particular order: leaving her magic lantern on for reassurance/rocking/cuddling her/reading to her/sitting by her cot/singing in a way that put me in mind of this.

She falls asleep again. When she wakes later, somewhere in the chaos of the night, we skip all the above steps and bring her into bed with us. She quietens immediately, and seems happy to be sharing with us. Or maybe it's the long night that has finally worn her out. Whatever it is, after a brief, but unedifying struggle between me and Va-vay over the duvet, we all - finally - drift off to sleep. As I fall into sleep, comfortably aware of the sound of her breathing next to me, I hear Va-vay's deep voice saying from the other side of the bed:

"Three friends, sharing a shell."

Nobody stirs. Peace, at last.